I was in that dark, self-destructive place. I was up one minute, down the next. Soaring and crashing and crashing and soaring; the roller coaster from hell.

I liked the way he handled himself in the kitchen. I like men who cook. Men who cook are generally good lovers.

The past explains how I got here, but the future is up to me - and I love to live life at full throttle.

I was in awe of him. I didn't speak; I listened. He was flawless.

If you think I'm over-the-top, I am.

I was in awe of him. I didn't speak; I listened.

I started Botox the first year it came out. I was the first one in line, and I have had Botox every six months since then.

This alpha dog is not going to take it lying down next time.

Aside from my modelling, by the early Nineties I was also starting to work as a photographer, which I loved.