When you cross the whitewash, you only think about the present.

It has always been my ambition to be captain of Wales over a sustained period of time.

I want to be a good person.

It's too easy to forget bad things. By keeping the reminders close, it's the reminder of not just who you are, but how you became what you are.

When I first started at Bridgend, I'd see the amount of work Rob Howley put in on his own after the team had all gone home. He was doing ridiculous amounts. So I started training like him. Always on my own.

I am not interested in individual glory.

You tell that to people until you are blue in the face and they struggle to believe it, but I am being totally truthful when I say that all that matters to me is Wales winning.

I think what I want to learn more than anything... is that, I've got HIV and it's OK, like. That's what I want to learn more than anything.

I'm terrible for road rage.

You could say I'm the pioneer in the way I have changed some people's perception of not only sports people but of gay men in general. It's also important that people also realise that as much as a pioneer I'm also just a normal person. I'm normal but I've done something that's pretty powerful as well.

If you can't give 100% to rugby then you can't do it justice.

If I hadn't had the rugby field to get rid of my aggression I would have been locked up a long time ago.

When I got married to my ex-wife, Jemma, I took my vows very, very seriously. I've been brought up with good values and I don't go into anything thinking: this is just for the sake of it - it's not going to last.

All I'm concerned about is that I'm with a good squad of players and want us to be competitive and I'm not looking for anything more.

I'm a sportsman, as good and strong as you, who just happens to be gay.

I hate driving.

Every gay man will tell you that 'coming out' is like a weight lifted from your shoulders and beng able to walk down the street knowing that there is nothing for me to hide has been a liberating experience.

I know that my parents sacrificed a hell of a lot to make sure that my brothers and I would have all that we needed.

There are excuses for dropping the ball or missing a tackle. But there are no excuses for not playing with a passion for your team-mates and as long as I get that response and they play well, I'll be happy.

I became the master of playing the straight bat - I would go to bars with the boys, I would always be the one to start a fight, to be outrageous and drink the most. I even went to the extreme of marrying the perfect woman for me.

Toulouse opened my eyes as a player and as a person. I returned to Wales 10 times better for the experience. I admit that when I went there I was not life-savvy: I was a wild child who lived life instinctively. I would walk past a building and not even notice it.

There are times in my life when I've wanted never to exist. There's times you don't want to go back to.

I knew I was gay at 18, but to come out then would have meant I would not have achieved what I did in rugby. I loved rugby so much and it was so important to me that I made the decision to keep my sexuality secret. People may disagree with that, but it was my belief and my decision.

You cannot afford to take any risks where your health is concerned.